happiness, I'm reading a book about it, I'm reading a daily blog about it (it's a great blog actually), still it eludes me as a concept. I'm married to a naturally positive person, which is great for me, unfortunately for him he is married to someone not always so positive. So I'm strategically working towards being better at that. So far I from the instructions I have been reading it takes planning, amendment of natural negative tendencies and ability for gratefulness to be happy.
I'm still at the planning stages. The author of the book I'm reading (Dr Timothy Sharp) talks about planning what you want out of your life. Which seems that people don't do. Well at least I've never done that.
It's not that I'm unhappy, it's just I have a tendency to see things from it's worst side, plan for total failure at all times and has some perfectionist tendencies in the way that I'm never pleased with my achievements. I once got 100% correct answers on an exam at uni (and I was the only one in the class that got 100%) and I still wasn't happy with how I performed.
So the plan is to be a little easier going, a little more planning for exiting events instead of a continues worst case scenarios planning and that way hopefully a little more fun.
My first plan was to do a course that I haven't done before. So tonight I do my first lesson in Wax Carving. We'll see how it goes.
My aim is not to be angry that I am not the best at my first attempt. If I can do that, I have come a long way.